UN-happy Times

I finished watching the newest OTH episode. I just want to go to Tree Hill, North Carolina and cry with Peyton. (That is, if it were a real place, and a true story...) I never thought a show could worsen my depression, but I was wrong. The wonderful actress that plays Peyton, Hilarie Burton, is probably not coming back for season seven. That is so very upsetting because Peyton is pregnant, and it's very likely that she's going to die. The most recent promo for episode 19 and the ones following made me cry, and I never do that. I'm trying to prepare myself for some sad, sad days. Peyton, A.K.A Hilarie, helped me get through a lot of really bad times. I realize she's now a 23 year old on the show, but she's still my rock and secretly private therapist. I don't know what I'm going to do when she's gone. Hopefully the writers will bring her back for a bunch of special guest appearances... But, considering Keith has only been brought back two times, it does not look promising... I guess I'll wait and see. Kinda have to.

God Bless.

Bitter Sweet

The last couple days have been a multitude of good and bad. I'd have to say the best thing that happened was my daddy came home. He's been in Thailand for almost four weeks. It's really great to have him back. Unfortunately though, I was sick as a dog the morning/night he arrived. I spent a lot of time sleeping on Friday.
Today was a little better. There was a "demonstration" at the flight line this morning. It was pretty cool, but I must have misunderstood when I first heard about it. I thought some of the planes, including the B2 Bomber, would be flown. I was wrong. In my opinion, it would have been much more entertaining if they'd included a mini air show, but it was still fun. The EOD squad, flight line firefighters, and canine trainers came out. Two F-22s, a B2 Bomber, and another really, really big plane were there too. It was awesome to see the Bomber up close. It looks so flat in the sky, but it's actually kind of fat.
Afterwards, mom, dad, and I went to the BX to check for more NCIS seasons. They had numero dos. The one we already have. Great. We'll have to look somewhere else I guess...

Hope you have a good rest of the weekend.
God Bless.

A Little Advice

Life is short. You never know when or how it's going to end. Now is the time to say"I love you" to those you care about. Don't sit back waiting for the right moment to go after your dreams. You may think you have all the time in the world, but in reality, you don't. I don't want to come off as pessimistic, but as far as we mortals know, we only have one chance to live life how we want. That doesn't mean go out and put yourself in danger. Make your life worth it; because it is. Consider how others view you. Would they want to be in your shoes? If not, how can you change that? Sure, you don't have control over every single aspect in your life, but you do have a choice. And I am pretty sure that where ever you are at the moment, you helped put yourself there. The point is, you shouldn't wait to live your life. If you aren't happy with your situation, just remember:
"Everyday is another chance to turn it all around."

So go for it. Live life to the fullest.

God Bless.

"To Make A Mountain of Your Life is Just a Choice"

Referring back to my last blog, I looked up the organization I mentioned, which is called Children To Children, and it was started by Makenzie Snyder. It's pretty dang close to my idea, except she only collects duffel bags and stuffed animals for foster kids. If you want to learn more about it, she has a website, http://www.childrentochildren.org/. She was seven years old when she set out on her endeavour. Seven! That is slightly above awesomely spectacular for someone at such a young age if you ask me. I wish I was that amazing when I was seven...

It turns out that one can start a drive for bags and stuffed animals in their city/town and send the proceeds to Makenzie where they will be distributed to kids who are in need of a bag and a friend. I'm thinking that's what I'll do, but I'm really worried about how the donors will feel about the items not staying here for the kids that need them in our community. Since I don't actually live in the United States, I can't help but second guess my potentially good deed. I'll give it some thought, and definitely talk to the person in charge at child services.

All day Saturday my mom and I were down at the girl scout office getting recirtified for infant, child, and adult CPR, and first aid. It started at nine and ended at four. Long, long day. But the instructor did have her infant son with her, so that made it all good. Plus the warm feeling of knowing I'll have a better chance of saving someone in the event of an accident.
'What did I do when I got home', you may ask. Slept of course. I seem to be doing that a lot lately, and I mean, who doesn't love sleeping, but I'm sure it isn't normal to want to sleep all the time. Just sleep. I should get that checked out. Great. Another thing added to my list.

The new One Tree Hill episode was freaking amazing! It was different from the other episodes, like five shows in one, but it added a lot to the story-line. Worried about Leyton, Julian is a jerk, hate Dan, love Naley, don't really care for Moullie. Can't wait to see the next one, which I believe is tonight. So I'll be watching that in a few days.

I didn't get much school done today, but I did get my stuff organized. Which is a good thing. The only subject I'm caught up on is psychology, so I have a long road ahead of me. I'm hoping to be completely on track by the first of April, and in order to accomplish that, I'll be working my butt off till then. It'll be great to be where I need to be, but for someone that hates doing school work, I'm in trouble. Big trouble... *Hence my blog title. I got myself into this mess, and it's up to me to find my way out.*

If you've heard of Maddie McCann, please keep her and her family in your hearts and thoughts. I believe she's still alive, although she's been missing since May 3, 2007. She's only five years old, and she deserves to go home to her mom, dad, and younger brother and sister. If you pray, please include her. Heaven doesn't need another little angel girl.

*B.T.W, SGP has been working on my computer since Thursday or Friday. Finally!*

God Bless.

For the Kids

A few weeks ago, I read A Child Called "It". If you've never heard of it, it's a true story about David Pelzer and one of the worst child abuse cases in California. In 1991, there were over 2.5 million cases reported. The book got me thinking about all those kids, and I decided I was going to do something to help them. Unfortunately, there's only so much a person or organization can do. Anyone with half a brain knows that child abuse, or any sort of abuse is wrong, but that obviously doesn't stop a lot of people. I suppose trying to start more prevention programs could possibly help, but I don't have the know-how to do that. So I've been searching for somthing I could do to help child abuse victims, and I finally came up with the perfect idea last night.

I was laying in bed, thinking back to David and how he got out of his abusive environment. He was taken straight from school and never went back to his house. I imagine that's the way many cases are handled to prevent the abuser from taking the kid or kids before the authorites can get them. Anyway, most kids probably don't have a chance to get stuff from their house before leaving, whether it be a stuffed animal, a blanket, a picture, whatever, and I'm sure they'd like somthing comforting to help with the journey.

So I came up with the idea to start a program that collects toys, backpacks, coloring books, crayons, blankets, clothes, whatever they may need to get them started. It could be completely based on donations, and if people want to give money, that's fine. The more means, the better.
Then I got to thinking,

"It's gonna suck big time if someone already thought of this".

And that's when it hit me. Someone did. I remember reading about it in Chicken Soup for the Preteen Soul. So I assumed I was back at square numero uno, but just when I was about to give the whole thing up, I realized I could try to contact the person that started the original program, and with her permission, I could maybe start a branch here, and/or where-ever I end up. I'm sure she wouldn't mind. Actually I think she'd welcome the help.
Time to make a difference.

How Much Did I Really Accomplish Today?

So, despite the mile long list of things that I needed to do today, everything turned out somewhat ok. I still have pretty much nothing crossed off on my infamous "to-do" list, but I am making progress. Kind of... I am so behind on school, it seems like I'll still be doing all my subjects during the summer. So that sucks. Big time. I have work I need to get done for girl scouts which really shouldn't be at the top of my "have to do now" pile, but I have to say, it's much more fun than doing something absolutely required. Like school.

Moving on. I can now say that I have successfully babysat a 4 year old, a 3 year old, a 2 1/2 year old, and a 16 month old all at one time. Alone. Sure, there were times I couldn't even hear myself think, a few spills, and the all time favorite boo-boos, but the important thing is that I survived and I don't think there will be any lasting damage on the kids. Plus I got free food and $35!

Putting reality aside, the newest episode of One Tree Hill aired tonight, or technically it'll be tomorrow. But I know I am soon to have a very special date with Youtube in just a few short days. I am so excited! Why do I have to watch one of my favorite shows on a 3"x6" screen on the internet? Well it's because the speck of land that I am currently living on does not have the station that airs the new episodes of this lovely "free escape from almost all of it" show. And I bet the minute I move from here, it'll be added to the list of channels. I guess that's life...

So it is now 12:51 am, and I suppose I should get to bed. SGP is still not working on my computer. I think it may have something to do with the feed. Or whatever it is that allows sites to show up one's com. But the wonderful Hilarie Burton did post a video sometime in the last 24 hours or so which made me smile. If you'd like to smile too, give her vlog a looksee.

God Bless and good night.
Or morning. Or day.
Which ever one applies to you.

My First Rant

I'm soaking wet, and I'm pissed. Not a good combination. Today was supposed to be my day and she totally ruined it. Why do kids like her so much?! I'm fun and nice, but they never warm up to me like they do to her. Ugh, it just makes me so mad. Why did I ask her to come? Then I would've been alone with 7 kids. Ok, so maybe she did help, but she didn't have to steal my spotlight dang it. This happens every fricken time. And I'm getting really tired of it.
*SGP is still not working on my computer. Great.*

Can't Live With It, Can't Live Without It

So I just checked SGP again, but on my dad's computer and it's working fine. Maybe they fixed it. Or it's just my stupid computer acting up like always. I'll go try to pull it up on mine again... Ugh, still nothing. I turned my computer off, so hopefully that'll set it straight... Darn technology.

Procrastination

Not much has happened today so far. Of course I've only been awake for a little under an hour... But that's beside the point. I have a crapload of stuff I need to be doing and I know I won't get it all done today. First and probably the most important thing is to get caught up on all of my school work. I've taken off 2-3 weeks of chemistry, history, and home ec. I should really get on that... SGP (Southern Gothic Productions) still isn't working. I think I'm going to restart my computer to see if that helps. Or check it out on another computer. Maybe they're just having problems with the site. But they've posted new stuff... I dunno, but it is really irritating me...

And So It Begins...

Well, I've always thought about blogging, since I tend to hold so much in, but what really convinced me to start was when I tried to check out Southern Gothic Productions, and it wouldn't let me see everything. I am hoping that having my own blog will change that. What confuses me is that I've been checking out their blog since it started, and all of a sudden it was being difficult. Oh well. Even if the site is just having a glich of some sort, I'll keep mine going. So, wish me luck! I'll try to update every few days if not every single day. Here goes something!