Personal Inquiries 3

41.Favorite hangout?

My dorm hallway.

42.Three thing you can't live without?

God, books, and faith.

43.Favorite song?

I really like Need You Now by Plumb.

44.Are you a give or a taker?

Probably a bit of both.

45.What are your nicknames?

Bex, Bekah, Wek.

46.What is your Dad's middle name?

Howard

47.What is your Mom's middle name?

Lynn

48.Stuck on an island and can only take one thing. What is it?

My Bible.

49.Favorite t.v commercial?

I love the old ETrade baby!! Any of those commercials, but I really laugh at the crib one.

50.Who's your cell phone provider?

Sprint

51.First thing you'll save in a fire?

Kind of depends where I am. Home, my cats. School, my books.

52.What are the things you always take with you?

My self? Usually have my phone and I.D. but sometimes I go without.

53.What did you want to be when you were a kid?

I distinctly recall wanting to be a gymnastics teacher, but my mom informed me that I didn't have enough experience.

54.What do you usually do when the clock strikes 11:11?

If I see it, I'll make a wish just to humor myself.

55.The color of your bed sheets?

White with cows and pigs.

56.What do you think about before you go to bed?

"Thank you God for this day." And everything I need to do or should have done.

57.What is your worst habit?

Staying up way too late and procrastinating.

58.If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

Lily Evelyn

59.Have you ever stolen something?

Not from a store, but I still have a friend's book from about 3 years ago.

60.Name one embarrassing thing about yourself.

I look up baby names and pair them up with middle names, then rank them in order of favorite to least favorite.

The Hurt and the Healing

I've tried to think of something to write about for the last few weeks. I want something profound and inspiring and important. But every time I've logged on or thought about logging on, I have nothing.
These past five months have gone by so fast yet slow at the same time. I started college, took a spiritual warfare journey, turned 21, made new friends, lost old friends, lost my grandpa, found myself, and almost lost myself again. A battle is raging inside me. One part says to give up. The stress, the loneliness, the soul-crushing sadness--that side never backs off. The other side is God telling me to keep pushing through and fully rely on Him. He says to put all of my burdens on Him because He can handle them. But all the while, reminding me that He would never take me through something that I can't handle. God promises that He never gives someone more than they can handle. And that feeling of not being able to cope, that is a diss on Him. I will usually believe that I can deal with anything because of God's confidence in me and the strength He gives me, but I admit that I still struggle with that annoying little voice saying that I can't. It's a horrible feeling. But every now and then, I experience a glimmer of hope. I hear God's voice through reading His words and the words of others. Some of my favorite quotes and verses right now are:

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6.

"Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise." Les Mis.

"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."

"Hang in there. I'm coming." God.

"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14.

Right now, I'm in between the two sides. Some days are better than others, and unfortunately, some days are worse. Ask anyone, and they will say that healing is a slow process. But even when I'm at my worst, I know that God is walking with me every step of the way. I'd like to end this post with one of my favorite poems. I hope you like it and it brings you comfort.

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was

walking along the beach with the Lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene, he noticed two sets of

footprints in the sand: one belonging

to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,

he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of

his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very

lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he

questioned the Lord about it:

''Lord, you said that once I decided to follow

you, you'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most

troublesome times in my life

there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why when

I needed you the most you would leave me."

The Lord replied:

"My son, my precious child,

I love you and I would never leave you.

During your times of trial and suffering,

when you see one set of footprints,

it was then that I carried you."

(Side note. I just realized that my last post was Footprints, but it's so good, it deserves to be in this one too.)